The Death Pain

Song of My Heart

My heart is broken
not even mendable pieces are left
simply particles of dust
that blew away
that blew far, far, away
along with the last drop of my trust.
Stabbing thorns hurt so badly
I could have screamed
could have cussed
But I didn't
I refused
I just let them hurt and build
and hurt more and more
till I was just confused
more than I could imagine
Its based on only one thought
I have no one
no one
no one will ever truly care
then...
a voice softly says...
with the sound of injury
"Don't you remember you still have me?"

With the sense of my soul, I write this...
deep within the heart, I have a pain...
...unexpressed, unknown...
tears rolling down my cheeks with a smile on my lips...
tears shed by eyes are known...
tears shed by heart???
who will listen to my silence?
Hid your feelings
bear the pain of life and
feel the burning sensation of consciousness loss
- that's what I feel now!
hey heart,
come closer,
forget the past,
dissolve yourself in the bitter truth...
I am expecting my life to come to me!
I open my arms in the air...
Search the poem of my life,
if not,
recover my dreams and me...
Don't ask me about the pain,
I, Myself don't know that...

...being a lighthouse...

Always a pleasure to keep others happy and smiling, taking the pains and sorrows with you. I have had this experience with all my kins&kiths. No wonder, I am a kind of outcast now... Thought of breaking up all the myths and unrealistic traditions, and landed up learning the lessons that life teaches you throughout the entire lifecycle. During this learning, I got so many questions unanswered and unsolved, as it goes, it is always true that some questions doesn't have any answers :( ...hmmm. back to the topic of being the lighthouse... sometimes, you find yourself happier, happier than ever before when you shed tears for others.

Yes "TEARS SHED FOR OTHERS ARE ALWAYS BETTER".

Throughout my life, that I have lived up until now... I have gone thru some people (yet to see so many) who used me to any extent and who really shared their joys and sorrows with me as a true friend. Nothing could stop me from cherishing all the moments I had these days... I have been a mentor, friend, teacher, guide, counsellor, to all kind of people. I loved the pleasure in giving. And following words say it all.

"Absolutely everything we do, give, say or even think, it's like a boomerang. It will come back to us. If we want to receive, we need to learn to give first... Maybe we will end with our hands empty, but... our hearts filled with love... And those who love life, have that feeling marked in their hearts." - Steven Covey

Yes, Giving is far better than expecting.
This is the secret of being happy with the life.